Who am i?

My question: Who Am I?

I feel like a leader, but act like a follower.

I dress like the models in Seventeen but I feel like a trendsetter.

My parents think I am boy crazy. I think all girls act like me.

Im scared of myself for my thoughts arent pleasent.

Im screaming for help...but get no answer.

Who Am I?

I dont care what other people think but I cry when they make fun of me.

I watch movies where people fall inlove. I want that. Only I am just 14 & cant have it.

I want to find the truth about myself.

What do I do?

How can i find out who I am?

Is there anyone out there with my situation? Is it just me?

Will i ever follow my dreams of going to college?, Being in movies and T.V shows?, Having a husband and a family?....i have so many I am determined to do but I cant if I do not know who I am?

This isnt me being sorry for myself. This is me trying to find out what to do.

Sincerely,

Me Myself & Who I am trying to find.